Waiting...

It’s amazing to me (although it shouldn't be) how at just the right moments God can use people or things to speak right to your need. Two days after we received "the call" that has changed our lives forever, we were watching Joyce Meyer & Creflo Dollar - two different ministers, two different sermons yet they both contained the truth that we needed for exactly what we were facing. We never get to watch them at home - we sat there and cried and cried knowing that God was already healing our hearts. Our tears were partly because our of pain but also because we were in awe. Well today is exactly 2 weeks since then and I received our mailout by Stepping Stones (we only receive it every few months and it is "Christian Support for Couples facing Infertility or Pregnancy Loss) and it again speaks to exactly right where we are. I’m so thankful that He is always right on time, that He’s not forgotten us, but rather He’s holding us. HUGE thanks to you all that have been lifting us up through prayer and encouraging emails...you are truly more of a blessing to us than you will ever know!

Here’s a poem from Stepping Stones, but it seems to sum up how Brad and I have felt over the past 2 years and especially the past 2 weeks:

Praise You in the Wait by Darlene Suter

I didn’t want to get out of bed- didn’t want to face the day.
This pain of infertility- it takes my breath away.

It seems everyone around me is sharing their good news,
But every month the disappointment reminds me what I lose.

I’m not complaining, God, for I know You hear my plea.
I know You have my best in mind, even when I fail to see.

I’m just being honest with you, God, and I know that You don’t mind.
I want You to search my heart, even when I’m afraid of what You’ll find.

I want my motives to be pure when asking You for such a treasure.
I don’t want a baby for selfish reasons so I can receive the pleasure.

So I’ll wait on You with faith and when my fear persists,
I’ll ask You for the strength to stand no matter what Your answer is.

I’ll praise you because of who You are and my heart will rest assured,
Because of the depth of Your perfect love I know I can endure.

And these scriptures encouraged us today:

"But I trust in you, O LORD; I say, "You are my God." My times are in your hands...Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the LORD."
Psalm 31:14-15a, 24 NIV

"Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD."
Psalm 27:14 NIV

"Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you, he rises to show you compassion. For the LORD is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for HIM!"
Isaiah 30:18 NIV

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