One year ago today I woke up earlier than usual, tip toed into the bathroom, carefully closed the door so that I wouldn't wake Brad up and randomly decided to tinkle on a stick. As with all the other tests I'd taken over the past 5 years my heart started beating quickly and I began telling myself that its okay if its not positive...this time I meant it. We were already parents and Kadynce had totally rocked our world and our hearts! But for some reason I felt compelled to take the test. I just happened to glance down and even before the 2 minutes was up I was a little confused...there was 1 solid bold line and a SECOND faint line. I've taken quite a few tests, more than I care to remember to be honest but this I had never seen...I grabbed the box and 2 lines meant it was positive! I called Brad, who is still sleeping, he jumped up and stumbles into the bathroom very confused (probably because this time I wasn't in the floor, tub, etc passed out - this used to happen all the time, usually do to dehydration, not fun!). I handed him the test and said, "LOOK!" (by the way he had no idea I was taking one) he looked at the box then back and forth at the test just like I did and replied, "are you sure?!" And I said, "Yeah, I think, are you mad?" since I'd never had this result before I figured I was sure...this wasn't at all the way I had always imagined telling him but it worked.
Having no clue on what to do next we conference called our moms, then not so patiently waited for Carolina Conceptions to open (I HIGHLY recommend Dr. Park), they took a blood test, later that day, again not so patiently waiting the doctor called to congratulate us and told us we were VERY pregnant. The next day an ultrasound confirmed there was indeed a little 8 week "Butterbean" growing in there...even now when I stare at my 4 month old baby boy sometimes it totally feels like a dream. And then his amazing big sister comes dancing and singing into the room and I can't help but think, wow, God is good.
I will get the journey to this point all typed out someday...
"Beautiful are the feet. of those that bring good news..."
